But do I accept it? I believe that one of the most difficult hurdles in the plan of salvation is in overcoming the belief that God is out to get me. Sure, we understand that in theory; it makes sense when we are in line with His will. But what about when I fall -   doesn't He have to punish me? No , you say. That is what Jesus died for. Fine. My penalty is paid. But what about blessings: surely, I am undeserving of those . Well... Hardened by Mercy And I will harden Pharaoh's heart, and multiply my signs and my wonders in the land of Egypt. (Exodus 7:3) Notice firstly that this is the Lord speaking. It did always puzzle me why God would harden Pharaoh's heart on purpose seeing that He really wanted Israel free. After all, it was just as much torture for them as it was for the king of Egypt. But I have discovered an answer - one that hurts. It hurts because... I do that . My family and I have been listening to a series of articles written in the 1890...